Japanese friend and Broadband
Yesterday I met Hiromi-san she’s from Japan coming to Sabah because of work. I was surprise that my mom got a friend from Japan and never mentions anything to me about it but I’m glad I met her before she goes back. She even gave us a present for the whole family.
I don’t know what this calls because it was written in Japanese. Hiromi-san brought it all the way from Japan. Oh and I forgot to tell you that she can speak Malay and she speak real fluently :O I mean that’s amazing but her accent still has a bit from her country lar, haha xD. I hope to snap a picture with her but there’s a reason for that, my mom cannot stop bragging about me she told Hiromi-san how much I love going to Japan and anything to do with Japan lar. I was embarrassed that my confident to ask her is gone -__-
Oh well never mind at least I got her Facebook, right now I’m waiting for her approval lol I never knew Japanese people is so funny, the way she speak and do her imitation while she speaks just plain funny xD . I like when she greets me she bows and say
“Namma sayo Hiromi”
For a lady that’s over 25+ her voice sounded so cute lol. Almost forgot there’s an uncle also with her I think it could be her friend or boyfriend I don’t know all I know that guy is a local in Sabah he can speak Dusun, English, Malay and Japanese. So okay lar enough about that after saying sayonara to Hiromi-san and her friend we (my daddy and mom) go to 1borneo to subscribe for broadband.
I felt like a ninja in 1borneo because I saw one of my ex so I ran around the mall like a weirdo and then I think to myself I should probably get to the DiGi centre otherwise my parents would kill me for keeping them waiting.
Even if broadband is cheaper than streamyx it still cannot download online games because of its GB but you could still play games that’s like in Facebook so don’t worry. After telling one of the workers about broadband then he needs to know how old I am, I think 18 above can subscribe already but I still not sure he even said since I’m 18 and a student the plans he chose for me is Explore with free modem.
If you take Discover then you have to pay the modem. The fees is rm100 if you take Explore and every month have to pay rm88 I say that’s good enough already lor.
Okay so after finish with signing some papers and listening to some advices I then got my broadband! This can be use anywhere you want to bring except the place that's not in town lar. By the way I saw this one new cute pink phone I bag my mom to buy it for me and if she buys me that I promise never to use her money ever again, its rm339! And it still looks brand new and I don’t care if it’s made from china it still looks like a good quality phone. Sigh, but unfortunately… they didn’t buy god dammit! When almost my mom want to buy T___T if only my daddy wasn’t so much of a cheapskate I felt abandon.. I never burden my parents also.
Beside I rarely go out nowadays how come they buy everything for my siblings and not me? I never bought a rm50, 000 car. I never bought a hp that’s cost almost rm1000 this is just one thing and its just rm339. *sit in dark corner whimpering* I just don’t get it. I think my sibling did most of the burden pretending to be nice outside and at home is like they coming back to hell.
It’s true my luck is 57% that’s just so fuck. Okay I sounded so spoiled blek. I’m okay lar I need alone time.
Labels: Bad Day
I refuse I refuse I refuse!
My part 2 trying to move on. Geez I hate making my blog into a love nonescene thingy whatever. Yes! I tried going out shopping doing everything I want!
Damn and still can't get you out of my mind but at least I'm not crying terribly like before I think I need more time. Not just that I feel like going out with my mates but unfortunately they all have started studies while mine starts on january next year... ish stupid NS.
I'm all alone going mad at home. Connection at home not connecting properly! I don't want to be like the movie 'Forgetting Sarah Marshall'(I don't know if thats the last name) just she reminded me of myself but I never sleep with another guy and I think I'm more like her ex because I like DDR and silly music... it's painful to see an ex that you spend so much being with someone else?
I hate that movie! it has lowered my life span. Sooner or later I feel like dying but no... I don't want that to happen. Grr! I wanna listen to Paramore!
Although it might not show tat 'I got him' or destroying his new gf reputation or anything. It's just giving me this cool vibe showing to me that I should live on and enjoy life.
Oh and this! YEAH I AM CRUSHED BY MY CRUSH!
Lastly this..
She understand what everyone goes through.. I wish to be strong like her
PS: For the ever first time I rejected a guy that offers me to be his gf while I'm still single. Feels good though.. for saying 'no' to him I mean.. just hated being heart broken.
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Love has it limits
I’m surprise who texted me last night.. and maybe you wanna know who, yes?
Well it was Teacher Thye, he thought us moral back at NS princess haliza. Can’t you believe it? Haha, not only that it was 8.57pm and I was asleep.. well almost.. sure it was early but I had issue with something and because of that issues it made me woke up at 2 something am. I can’t sleep I had to talk about it to someone but this time it has to be a guy I’m tired talking problems to girls I need a new way to keep my confidents up a little so that is to talk about it to a guy.
You don’t know how relieve I was after saying my heart out to Megat. He’s such an awesome friend listening to my problem unlike Ming Ming already sent 2 messages and suddenly he disappear but I guess I should understand lar it is late maybe he was really sleepy after coming back from work. Sigh, okay I’m tired of hiding the facts. I ‘was’ still with Roshan but now officially break up and this time for real. He found someone else.. out of no where he confesses to me that he dated someone behind my back while we were still together.
I don’t want to tell anyone including my closes friends, I’m sorry. There’s reason I did this it was because I sense that we might be breaking up again and I’m embarrass to tell people
“hey we finally back together”
“hey erm….. we broke up”
It’s like a circle of an unending love that I still not sure yet if we are really meant for each other and now the circle has finally broken. So everyone I’m okay now.. for now at least.. just I hope I wont end up having another relationship with someone else for the time being. I’m too scared that it might happen again, however I need to relax and heal myself. Oh and I start exercising I need to get back in shape.. I don’t want to let a guy pleasure me all the time so I hope I can live my life being single and happy all the time.
God give me the strength to move on! Feel like changing my number.
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Stuck in the middle
I had trouble dealing with stuff. Sure I maybe the daughter of a lawyer but me and mum have our differences doesn’t mean we should be the same and for your information she and I is really not the same but it’s best for me not to say it any further. Okay enough about my mum, I’m trying to talk about how complicated life is for me. Sure there maybe obstacle I may face through in life but the thing I’m most afraid of me following with friends.
Mostly people call me ego sometimes but that only depends on my mood and my mood that time had it reason to be ‘ego’ towards you guys. We live in Malaysia, and here we can speak manglish or perhaps singlish if you feel like being Singaporean. My problem is I’m a blur girl >_> sometimes I can be stupid and other times talk as if I know stuff you know but that base on what I know from others, I listen.
The thing is I have a lot of troubles that I wish to talk about so I’m going to talk about it before getting ready to go to my new transferring camp in Papar (last time was in Selangor). So anyway, as I was saying I just don’t like to be treated weirdly :( until it makes me feels uncomfortable with this feeling. When I talk to you, why won’t you remember? And sure I know a lot may have a lot of different problem like me, so I understand.
(God, I’m feeling emo today) oh yeah I wanted to tell whoever that reads this that I had problem communicating now. The way I wrote now maybe just ‘alright’ but still it’s hard when there’s a lot of people like 'talking'. You know, I don’t blame them for talking Malay with me (of course this is malaysia after all), just when I speak that language more often I tend to forget some English words and always my grammar (for me) is on error. If you read one of my NS post you get confuse with what I’m trying to explain. I felt blonde!
In life right now I feel as if I’m a grandmother trap in an 18 year old body. I make a change la. Ish, I hate the way I am. So I'm off now see you guys in 3 weeks ;)
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Bilikku 'Hell'ku
This show sucks. These people is very cheapskate one. Know why? They destroy my Uncle's wife's sister's room.. and okay that may sound confusing to say so I just call her my auntie mudah =P . To make it more easier! her name is Joey.. sure Joey sounds like a guy's name but if you wanna know..
In the picture you can see she looks like one, no? To tell you the truth I was a bit jealous knowing that Joey's room was going to get renovated -__- the theme of the show is Rock because Joey is a rocker type of girl and also she's the coolest one I know :) oh she also play the guitar.. and not forgetting she's a photographer in Limkokwing! WOW right?! :O this year is her final year there.
So anyway about her room.. I never pernah saw her room before it's been transform.. but never mind.
Me and the others(Belle, Jennifer, and the other girl) was sitting on the living room coach watching television but it's sad we can't turn on the volume so loud they say the crew was about to start renovating. Then suddenly the director went to the living room to ask if we would like to go in television.. the other's was like "don't want, don't want" but as for me I kept quiet because I don't give a damn also!
Hmm I lied, I want bah my face go in Tv :p and good thing too the director asked me if I want in.. I was playing it cool and nodded only. The others was shy and don't want to do it but lastly they do it also except for one la.. Joey's older second sister but the director did mention that only 2 family members and 2 friends can allow to act inside. 7/8 hours had past.. still the room haven't finish.. but actually o.o it was like 5 days ago they went to Joey's house -.- why didn't they start 5 days ago then wait after 5 days later =__=" ?
That is why show business always lie to people that watches the television (or maybe just the malaysian that likes doing this). Sure if your making a movie or something that's fair enough to understand but this show they say they finish in one day and the host said the family will leave the house and will be surprise after they come back from where ever. Oh please you believe juga ka at what they say? (padahal I pernah kena tipu).. Omg.. they're fake! fake fake fake with the CAPITAL F!
Lookey here.. if Joey and the family was out..
Why Joey was in the room didn't she went out? the room haven't finish yet.. and didn't they say that they wanted to surprise her? Sorry for the blurry picture guys >__> . I even saw Joey helping the crew members putting her new stuff inside. -__- I'm not surprise at all. No wonder in every malaysian Tv show when a host knocks your front door and there you are all dress up for the camera with make up and everything. I tell ya they were planning it from the very beginning..
Okay enough bad comment about it if they want to be fake all this time then so be it la. Now is time for Joey's family and friends to act! That's Belle and Joey's father inside the picture.. first that goes in was Joey's friends.. that would be me and the other girl and okay there's no picture of me and ada bah auntie said she want to take a picture of me using my camera but I was shy so I just say no to her politely. Hmm -__- I didn't do much of the talking.. just the other girl did and..... the truth is.. she was like all bitch up you know o.o .
I didn't like it so I just like look amazed and when Joey ask me I was like "ok" I was seriously blur!! if I rapat with them more I think I will be bitchy also like the other girl. lol. :p so after we finish compliment her room and all then it's time for the family's turn.. Belle and Joey's father is going in.. hahaha xD their funny because they keep on re-taking more than 5 times already.
Even if this show so cheapskate.. using the old stuff balik as if they bought it somewhere.. it's still fun experiencing la. Get to see behind the scene.
*when everyone was finishing packing and head back to the studio, they (Joey and the girls) were complaining at the back.. talking about her new room*
Joey: My room.... *sad tone*
Belle: Aku rasa bilik dulu kau lagi smart lagi dari sekarang
Joey: Itu la... it's too clean...
Jennifer: When I look at your room it doesn't look like a rockstar.. more like a pornstar
*everyone laugh*
It's true if you must know. The person who design the room is GAY! thinks he knows everything about 'Rock' I also don't like it. So don't find 'Bilikku Syurgaku' people if you want your room being renovated. You better off renovate yourself.
Lousy Breakfast
I look so damn ugly in the morning. -_- .
Hey guys so today will be my last day being here in Kuching. Tonight at 10pm whatever... going to the airport wanted to head back to Sabah already (finally). So auntie bringing us to see the crocodiles in Crocodile Farm which I am so excited because I’m going to see real life crocs :] .
First we went to this lousy place called Grace Place for breakfast. Really the place is so lousy one. The services very terrible no wonder not many people go there.
As usual I ordered my favorite fried Kueh Teow but it came out really unexpected.
What the hell? When the person asks me if I want chili or tomato so I told her I wan tomato. I never knew that they would make it look like a soup in my Kueh Teow. The food I give it a 2/5 and why? Because I said fried not wet! =_=
Then when we want to go out already (that time the car already want to drove off) one of the auntie that work there stop my auntie’s car in the middle of the road (so chi sin that auntie suddenly go in the road just to stop us). She said that we need to pay her rm3 again. Wtf man?? I was in a bad mood knowing that their service is so lousy so why must pay again?
Not to be rude with you people but if you ever see this place please don’t go in. Later you come out very annoyed that. -.-
Labels: Bad Day, Day 4 at Sarawak, Kuching
Crap =__=
Oh shyt! D: my pendrive is crap! This shows I really need a new pendrive and also laptop! :( Dumb laptop everyone keep on using it until over and over have to clean because to much virus! D: not just that the broadband is somehow a bit rosak and I can’t explain why. >___>
All my picture of when I was in KL and also videos that I haven’t got the chance to paste it in this laptop before I format it in my pendrive already gone lar! (and I know it’s my choice to delete but still I want to keep some just in case bah) T___T . Memories gone.. and in my KL post already la I deleted >___> now I can’t look it back anymore… this is tooo sad… T___T at least I got my sticker la. Haiz, so susah2 to took it ya know. D:
I’m very very pissed!! >:( . Like want to kill someone. ISH! Next time when I already got my new laptop I don’t want to share it with anyone I put password next time! D: Fuck them those stupid people that use my laptop without taking good care of it!
Sigh, never mind la I make sure I make extra fun than the last time! I make sure of it so I wont have to feel regret like now! T___T
Labels: Bad Day
My newest fear
LOVE
I loved you more than I have ever known,
Those starry eyes,
Those tender lips,
You made my heart melt,
Then boil into a roaring fire,
I now know,
What my eyes could not see,
You are the only one that is for me,
Many nights those tears flew,
Being myself without anyone,
Anyone to care about the thoughts,
Looking at the sky and knowing,
Many mistakes I had,
Many mistakes I have had,
No more playing around. I'm now taking relationship seriously but for now I'm going to stay single until I found the right one. Although your still in my mind and heart I will without a doubt will love you no matter what. I hope you remember me too :( . I still keep our picture together and your clothe. I would not throw it away because if I do I might lose the other half of me. Even if you throw my stuff that been given to you. I don't mind.. it's just money.. worthless money.. but to you.. you're priceless to me. So I wait until the day that maybe we can still be together.
If not... then I leave the rest to God. I can't believe you cant see that I really love you. I must sounded desperate huh? If you want to know.. Love makes me this way! D: and because of Love.. it made me realise that your the one for me.. I missed you. I need you. But I just cant force you. I'm sorry.... :[ I must be a bad GF when I was with you. I wish I go eat dog poo and then go kill myself.
Sigh, I hate sounded dramatic and also symphatetic. T__T you cant even tell if I'm really crying now.
Labels: Bad Day
When my ex called
I'm labeling today 'Bad Day' because Andrew called me. And I guess you don't know who's andrew huh? Well he's a jerk! A jerk from Sabah not forgetting a womanizer! D:< I hope you read this now Andrew! He 'was' my boyfriend but I can't say if he even remembered tat we were a couple. D: I mean to me I don't know because it was a very very confusing time that time. Really confusing but better not let you guys know la..
Me: *Saw Andrew calling and pick up*
Andrew: *talks blah blah blah chinese*
Me: What are you saying?!
Andrew: Eh? You not know how to speak chinese meh?
Me: Where got la I know how..
Andrew: *Just speak chinese*
Me: UI!!! what you say this?!
Andrew: I talk bad stuff about you also you wont know la
Me: You so stupid ooo...
Andrew: You la baka
Me: ish you la stupid! =__=
Andrew: Baka baka baka!
Me: Stupid! If you say Baka also people dont know oo~
Andrew: People know already what Baka mean la~
Me: Yeah la but if I call you stupid people will know but baka some only wont know owh..
Andrew: Some only!
Change of topic! Still want to read? then go ahead.
Andrew: I see your your picture very different oh!
Me: Har...?
Andrew: When I see your picture at fs ah I think to myself la this girl look very firmiliar 1.. so I call Amanda la and she say "yeah yeah you know her la the one- *sorry he talks to fast so I forgot* but I know you wear make up la..
Me: *chuckle*
Lol, he's so stupid he didn't know it was edited... and then I dont remember what he said again.. so NEXT!
Me: I so shock oh how you still can remember me oh?
Andrew: Of course I remember la...
Hearing those words make me hard to believe =___= because last year he told me he don't know who I am.. well actually >__> I didn't put my picture in MSN of course la... but there's one time la he go my fs and said "You look firmiliar la" like hell I gotten angry he forgot my face for almost than a week already?! I mean we hang out together for 2 weeks oh.. how can he forget?
When he got a new girlfriend (that time I was with mine also but broke up 2 years ago) he remember -__- and start calling out for us saying that we should hang out together. Sigh, I guess we need to meet face to face then he can remember oh.. but this year I really want to change my outlook! hiak! :D LOL
SORRY BAKA ANDREW!! BLEK!! YOU SUCK!! just be lucky that I talk bad about you in my blog! revenge for calling me sa poh and other stupid words!! =-="
Labels: Bad Day
Snake outside my house!
ARGH!! This is just crap! =__=" when I was happily texting with Sheng Hong. Then suddenly my mum come in the room saying there's a snake outside. Like what else?! won't you say wtf also?? >.< lol, :D but it is kinda fun seeing a real cobra!! yes it's a cobra.. but it's a small one >.> but poisonous >.< hopefully not one of my dog been beaten though.
If that's not enough prove then i show the firemen la!!
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